What if this new baby had issues that would now take the lion share of my time? What if I'd tempted fate and messed up the good thing we had going? Would this changing-point-in-our-lives day be something Abby would thank me for in the future or need to talk out with her therapist?
Two years later, the joy that I see pass between these two little girls, even when they're hitting heads, warms me through and through. Maya, our baby number 4 was planned. Ditto with the trip to China. Finding Abby a best friend was unplanned. And I love it.